When I get a call from my loved one, addicted to heroin, saying he's got no money, on the streets, no food, no water, desperate, well, it's easy to move into worry, and savior role. But is it true that it will be helpful to him, or to me, to rush in and try to save him? When I sit and notice the moment slowly, I notice I'm sitting comfortably in a chair, breathing, thankful to be speaking with him, I love him, I listen, there's nothing else I need to do at the moment. He's telling me his experience. He's not even asking for my help. I believe he understands I can't rush in and save him. Sometimes he's asked for cash to be wired, and I simply say "I love you, and I'd like to help you get to a safer place where there's more support and assistance to get clean. And I won't be sending cash". Hearing "no", may upset him, but my connection is warm and profound. I can be with him, loving him, as is, without fixing him or the situation. While we were speaking, someone he knows shows up on the street corner and offers to get him to a rehab, and there's nothing I have to do, but love him. He knows the rehab is what he really needs at the moment. It's all happening in its own time, and all of it is showing us a way. With inquiry, it's showing me a kind way. I can't change him, I'm learning to trust his path whatever that may be, and I love us.
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